Preface


Preface


Greetings,

           

As I have said in other introductions, all these thoughts began coming to mind in 1989 towards the end of my teaching years in Ojai. After moving up to Chico in Northern California, I began transcribing all the notebooks that were piling up. Since money and being on stage have never been all that motivating, I was not sure what to do with it all, if anything. As the gold rush of the early internet and email began to roll, I got the idea in the mid-90’s to send it out randomly – spam before the word spam became prevalent, at least in my mind – and began haphazardly collecting email addresses from all the uncloaked emails being forwarded during the web's early daze. My bad-boy sniping across the digital void evoked a variety of responses, not all of them happy or pleasant. It was not a lengthy escapade, and eventually, while on disability and attending Humboldt State a few years later, I took an HTML programming class, created the website, and have used it as center stage ever since.


As to the wide range of responses, Lao Tzu said it well in Chapter 41 of the Tao Te Ching translated by Derek Lin:


Higher people hear of the Tao

They diligently practice it

Average people hear of the Tao

They sometimes keep it and sometimes lose it

Lower people hear of the Tao

They laugh loudly at it

If they do not laugh, it would not be the Tao


Tao Te Ching Online Translation

https://taoism.net/tao-te-ching-online-translation/


In his collection of ancient writings titled The Perennial Way, Bart Marshall translated it:


When the wise student hears of Tao,

he practices diligently.

When the average student hears of Tao,

he practices off and on.

When the foolish student hears of Tao,

he laughs out loud.

If the foolish do not laugh, it is not Tao.


Tao Te Ching: Forty-One

https://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com/2011/06/forty-one.html


So, for good, for ill, or for nada, it is out there in the winds of space and time, toying with human consciousness, toying with the mystery, as seen through this natured-nurtured frame of reference.


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Writing has been an enjoyable process ever since I first began toying with prose; scribbling poetry, keeping journals, corresponding with friends and acquaintances during the college daze. The philosophical/mystical/whatever-you-want-to-call-them thoughts, that have been popping into mind since 1989, have always been very out-of-the-blue spontaneous. Nothing planned or forced about them. They are being shared on the off chance that others may find them of interest, though, quite frankly, it really does not matter if no one else ever even reads them, for I am, first and foremost, my own audience. I got mine, so to speak. I played my little part. I had my share of fun. And it is, as it has ever been, up to each to discern their own, on their own. There are really no followers in this Don Quixote quest; only earnest seekers, who waylay their desires and fears and dreads, enough to discern that which is the end to doubt, the end to dueling with windmills. “Yay” if it is your fate to figure it out. “Oh well” if it is not. And “so it goes” either way, really. Ecclesiastes 1:2 is always a good reminder: “Vanity of vanities,” saith the Preacher, “Vanity of vanities. All is vanity.” Awareness can only, with great effort, regain control, regain sovereignty, from the usurper, imagination, creator of all that is time, creator of all that is space. Creator of all that is illusion, has never has been anything more than illusion, will never be anything more than illusion. Only as real as the given moment.

 

“The Stillness Before Time” is the original work that came together in 1992, including mostly aphorisms, an essay, a newspaper question-and-answer, ten reflections, and lists of both movies and books. Though an early self-published version, long since edited and expanded, can be purchased at major booksellers, a downloadable copy is available, no charge, at the link below. There are also links to a variety of blogs of other creations by me, along with links to many writings of a similar nature, by thinkers and seers from across all times, across all geographies.


"The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim" is the second published book, and is both blogged and available as a PDF download.

 

The “Breadcrumbs” titles, published annually since 2015, all include the core chapters: Leftovers, Soundbites, Breadcrumbs. In the Breadcrumbs chapters, I unleash thoughts of a more personal nature than in the other two. All just to show I was ensconced in a living, breathing, relativity mundane, oftentimes foolish, mortal mind-body. An actor playing the hand that was dealt; same as everyone else, vain as everyone else. No need to sculpt me into more than I was. No need for myths, nor legends, nor fables, nor miracles, nor cult followings, nor any other fictions, any other absurdities, over to which the human mind, and all its imaginary history, has so often given itself. The Breadcrumbs chapters prove me again and again to be yet another Shakespearian player, as full of the limited and arbitrary as anyone else born into this dream of space and time. So please be sure not to shape me, or these many random thoughts, into some dogmatic absurdity. Use them as a launchpad, not an orbit.

 

“The Return to Wonder” blog is a compendium of aphorisms not included in the three other works: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, and Breadcrumbs. It originally totaled 3,000 pages formatted in 300 ten-page chapters written since 1990-ish. A gradual editing that will likely never be completed, is changing that dynamic into something of a mishmash.

 

Please note that this sort of wordplay is very haphazard, way too much work to put into any order. Probably best read it in bits and pieces in the here and there. One of those open-to-any-page works. Especially well-suited for coffee shops, coffee tables, and porcelain thrones.

Also note that all writings are always subject to updates and editing, so if you are interested in the most current version – before this house of cards comes tumbling down, and the world grows large again – downloading PDF copies every once and a while might be a reasonable discipline. This applies especially to the current year of Breadcrumbs, which could well be an annual project until the last wheezing breath, though frankly, the temptation to stop writing entirely is not off the table. It is a pleasant way to pass some of the countdown remaining, but it is unlikely there is much ground that has not been wandered by this frame of reference far more than enough already. No matter how many times Sisyphus rolls the boulder up the mountain, it is more than a little doubtful the seven blind men and their true-believer followers, will ever discern, ever realize, ever embrace, the elephant in the middle of the room, without fabricating some new form of absurdity. It is the way we roll, it is the way we have always rolled, it is the way we will, far more than probably, always roll. Every species has its limitations, and we have in this mind’s eye, far-exceeded ours.


That said, if you do find these many thoughts at all worth preserving, for whatever times are ahead for this world and all its life forms, please feel free to share them with others who might also appreciate them. Else they may well swiftly slip back into the timeless oblivion from whence they came.

 

So it goes, either way. I said my piece, I had my fun.


All the best,

M

P.S. For best viewing online, using the largest screen you have available to explore my little theme park, is suggested. Scrolling down and down on a phone screen is just not going to give you the same entrée.


P.P.S. Regarding the name Yaj Ekim ... It is just a reverse spelling of the first and middle names ... Michael Jay Holshouser ... Mike Jay ... Yaj Ekim.

 

P.P.P.S. Coincidently, make of it whatever you will, or will not, Yaj is an Indian boy’s name meaning worshipper, sacrifice, another name for Shiva, a sage. And Ekim is a Turkish name for October meaning “sowing” (of seeds). All kinds of absurdity can be read into that by the many, so-inclined  – none of which was in mind when the idea came to reverse the letters to my name. See P.P.S. for details.

 

P.P.P.P.S. Yes, I am Shiva. And so are You. No, I am not Shiva. And neither are you. Irony and paradox rule.




The Stillness Before Time

Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner


Michael J. Holshouser



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Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner
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There is really only one Way.

It is without division or boundary.

It is without name or theology.

Awareness is its scripture.

Here now, its venue.

You, its witness.

Your life, the journey.


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Preface

Leftovers

Soundbites

Breadcrumbs

The Standard Ripostes

The Corollaries of Yaj Ekim

Possible Last Words & Epitaphs

Spam Responses (a.k.a., WTF Is This Shit!?)

A Short List of Books for the Up and Coming

59 Moments to The Way It Is (And Is Not)

Sketches of the Once Upon a Time

The Real is Discovering Series

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Got God?

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Eight Translations of the Ashtavakra Gita


The Heart of Awareness (Byrom)

http://theheartofawareness.blogspot.com/


Ashtavakra Gita (Marshall)

http://theashtavakra.blogspot.com/


Bitten by the Black Snake (Schoch)

http://bittenbytheblacksnake.blogspot.com/


A Duet of One (Balsekar)

http://aduetofone.blogspot.com/


Ashtavakra Gita (Richards)

http://anotherashtavakragita.blogspot.com/


Astavakra Samhita (Wood)

http://astavakrasamhita.blogspot.com/


Ashtavakra Gita (Vedic Scriptures)

http://ashtravakrageeta.blogspot.com/


Ashtavakra Gita (Shastri)

http://ashtravakrageeeta.blogspot.com/



PDF’s of Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva


Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva 
http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitaiamshiva.pdf


I Am Shiva Comparison Chart 

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/iamshivacomparisonchart.pdf



PDF’s of Eight Translations of the Ashtavakra Gita


The Heart of Awareness (Byrom)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/theheartofawarenessbyrom.pdf


Ashtavakra Gita (Marshall)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakrafitamarshall.pdf


Bitten by the Black Snake (Schoch)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/bittenbytheblacksnakeschoch.pdf


Ashtavakra Gita (Richards)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitarichards.pdf


A Duet of One (Balsekar)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/aduetofonebalsekar.pdf


Astavakra Samhita (Wood)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/astavakrasamhitawood.pdf


Ashtavakra Gita (Shastri)

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitashastri.pdf


Ashtavakra Gita (Vedic Scriptures) 

http://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitavedic.pdf



Translations of Other Ancient Writings


Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva

http://ashtavakragitaiamshiva.blogspot.com/


Tao Te Ching: Verse One

http://taotechingverseone.blogspot.com/


Tao Te Ching (Marshall)

http://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com/


Bhagavad Gita (Marshall)

https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com/


Yoga Sutras (Marshall)

http://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com/


Dhammapada (Marshall)

http://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com/


The Book of Ecclesiastes (Marshall)

https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com


Song of the Avadhut (Abhayananda)

http://songoftheavadhut.blogspot.com/


Avadhut Gita (Shastri)

http://avadhutgitabydattatreya.blogspot.com/


Atma Bodha (Chinmayananda)

http://theatmabodha.blogspot.com/


The Essence of the Ribhu Gita (Ramamoorthy & Nome)

http://theribhugita.blogspot.com/


Yoga Vasishta Sara (Ramasramam)

http://yogavasishtasara.blogspot.com/


Crest-Jewel of Discrimination (Madhavananda)

http://crest-jewelofdiscrimination.blogspot.com/


Mandukya Upanishad & Mandukya Karika of Gaudapada (Panoli)

https://mandukyaupanishadpanoli.blogspot.com


Gaudapada: Advaita Vedanta’s First Philosopher (Jones)

https://advaitavedantasfirstphilosopher.blogspot.com/2020/02/on-tradition.html



Writings by Bart Marshall


Verses Regarding True Nature
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One Hundred Two Haiku

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Translations of Ancient Writings by Bart Marshall


Ashtavakra Gita

http://theashtavakra.blogspot.com/


Tao Te Ching

http://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com/


Bhagavad Gita

https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com/


Yoga Sutras

http://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com/


Dhammapada

http://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com/


The Book of Ecclesiastes

https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com



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